305 posts tagged “music”

This is the song I have in my head at the moment (for all the correct reasons), but it doesn't fit yesterday. Yesterday was an odd day.  I started out being bitched out at work for something stupid that wasn't my fault, and then told that I could have the Sunday of Memorial Day weekend off (go me - 4 days off this weekend and 5 off next.  Course, I have annoying commitments many of those days, but still, it's not at work.)  I also have made peace with some stuff that came to a head over the weekend.  So while things aren't resolved, I'm in a decent place thanks to my own strength, good friends, and a good therapist.  Not necessarily in that order.

So I've been trying to figure out what song fits yesterday and this is the one that comes to mind first.  And it says a lot that I can recognize those I have let in and, while I'm still farking scared to death, I hope know trust hope that they won't intentionally hurt me. 

We're in an evolution
I have heard it said.
Everyone's so busy now but
Do we move ahead?
The planets hurling and
Atoms splitting
And a sweater for your love you sit there knitting.

I don't know where it all begins.
And I don't know where it all will end.
We're better off for all that we let in.
- Indigo Girls, "All That We Let In"

Wow, Sarah, I hadn't done it.  So here I go.  And now I'm sitting at my desk crying.  Dammit.

You can't hide
Behind social graces.
So don't try
To be all touchy-feely
Cuz you lie
In my face of all places.
But I've got no
Problem with that really.

What bugs me
Is that you believe what you're saying.
What bothers me
Is that you don't know how you feel.
What scares me
Is that while you're telling me stories,
You actually
Believe that they are real.

And I got
No illusions about you.
Guess what?
I never did.
When I said
When I said I'll take you,
I meant
I meant as is.
- Ani Difranco, "As Is"

It's really for the last couple days.

Where are you?
And I'm so sorry.
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight.
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on,
So haunting every time.
And as I stared
I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides.
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason.
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight?
Stop this pain tonight.

Don't waste your time on me
You're already
The voice inside my head.
- Blink 182, "I Miss You"

Yeah.  I'm smitten.  And I really don't care who knows.  There's a reason there's no lyric for yesterday, but I'm not sharing ;).  (And I wrote these out the way Prince did; the way he always does in his liner notes. Except I added punctuation.)

From the first moment I saw u
Ooh, I knew u were the 1.
That night I had 2 call u -
I was rappin till the sun came up.
Tellin u just how fine u look.
In a word, u were sex.
All of my cool attitude u took -
My body was next.

U made love 2 me
Like u where afraid
Was u afraid of me?
Was I the first?
Was I your every fantasy?
- Prince, "Adore"

Played it several times yesterday to center myself in the middle of a REALLY BAD day.

You take me in
No questions asked.
You strip away the ugliness
That surrounds me.

Are you an angel?
Am I already that gone?
I only hope
That I won't disappoint you
When I'm down here
On my knees.

And sweet
Sweet
Sweet surrender
Is all that I have to give.

Sweet
Sweet
Sweet surrender
Is all that I have to give.

And I don't understand
By the touch of your hand
I would be the one to fall.
- Sarah McLachlan, "Sweet Surrender"

I just realized I didn't do this last night...

I'm stuck in the tardis.
Trapped in hyperspace.
One minute snake charming,
The next in another place.

All the right moves and
Earn the right percent;
Watch me dance like a puppet -
You can almost see the strings.

Give me an answer
Give me a sign
I've been climbing up this ladder.
I've been wasting my time.
- Radiohead, "Up On the Ladder"

Lovelovelove this album.  Wish they were coming to Tampa so I could see them.

Well you impress me so completely.
I start obsessing to hear from you.
Whatever you do,
You do sweetly
It takes a lot to not take from you.

You're not secure enough to tell me,
Your first impression of all these clowns.
So you'll be tricky enough to compel me
To take the lead and to speak out loud.

Speak to me and don't speak softly.
Talk to me and let me know.
Grab hold of my shoulder and tell me.
Grab hold and do not let go.
- Raconteurs, "These Stones Will Shout"

I get into, I don't want to say ruts cuz that's the wrong word but I can't think of anything else that makes sense, with bands.  I've been listening to Depeche Mode a lot this week.  And this song always sticks with me.

I am happy
That I have you
Even though you're not here now.
I know somewhere
You are dreaming,
Though it's definitely
Not of me.

It doesn't matter
If this all shatters.
Nothing last forever.
But I'm praying
That we're staying
Together.

I am warmed
By your friendship.
Even when you're far away.
And I'm happy
In the knowledge we may
Never
See the day.

When I kiss you
And you kiss me
Don't pretend
You miss me.
It's the worst kind
Of diseased mind
Is one filled with jealousy.
- Depeche Mode, "It Doesn't Matter"

Friday blurred into Saturday, so this really is for both days.  This is the only good song Jefferson Starship ever did.

Have you seen the stars tonight?
Would you like to go up on the deck
And look at them with me?
Have you seen the stars tonight?
Would you like to go up for a stroll and keep me company?

Did you know
We could go.
We are free.
Any place
You can think of
We can be.
- Jefferson Starship, "Have You Seen The Stars Tonight"

I'm smitten.  I really am.  It's kinda fun and funny.  But at the same time, it's not a smitten where I'm ignoring the realities of the relationship.  Which makes it all the better.

I've tried so not to give in.
I've said to myself this affair never will go so well.
But why should I try to resist
When, Baby
Will I know that well
That I've got you under my skin

I'd sacrifice anything come what might.
For the sake of having you near.
In spite of a warning voice that comes in the night,
And repeats, repeats in my ear.
- Frank Sinatra, "I've Got You Under My Skin"